#FUCK TAPE 9
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"i ought to have killed you the moment you left my body"
the way rio looks away so upset, not just angry but genuinely upset, god how many times do you think she listened to agatha lament over her mother seeing her as an evil thing?
how much do you think rio saw the toll it took on the woman she loved, to be seen as a wretched thing but her own mother, to be seen as a wretched thing (death) by all of humanity itself.
the way she looks away, like she's heard it before, like she's dealt with it a million times??
#harkdal#agathario#agatha all along#I'M GOING FUCKING INSANE I NEED MORE OF THEM WDYM THE ONLY GONNA BE 9 EPISODES#gay tape
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OK I GOT MYSELF EXCITED.... ANDORIAN LATE 1860S
#star trek#genuinely my favorite 19th cen fashion era#the empire waist. the elliptical hoops. the almost art deco design sensibility#with the sumptuous... plumpness of the trim (they FUCKED with rouleaux and loose bias tape satin)#idk exactly why i did it with andorians. i just thought the vibe matched.#it was that or like 1880s (nice winter clothing there!) but i do not care for the 80s tbh#dee s 9
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Listening to the mgs peace walker tapes and then listening to the mgs V tapes has done irreparable damage to my brain
#so this happened WEEKS ago ok#and still it's#it's.#it is quite something#ok here's the thing#we know how Kaz and BB were like during pw#and then you have Paz saying stuff like 'Kaz and Big Boss came up with the idea' 'Kaz and Big Boss made this decision' and blablabla#it's all Kaz and BB doing stuff together and making plans and etcetcetc#and then you listen to the fucking mgs V tapes and it genuinely makes me crazy bc#Im pretty sure BB doesn't even say Kaz's name. At all. Not even once.#he doesn't ask how he's doing#he doesn't ask if he knows about the plan. what he thinks about it. nothing#and yeah maybe there wasn't time or whatever but to BB. that relationship that he had with Kaz? It's recent.#he's been in a coma for 9 years. to him running motherbase with Kaz is part of his most recent memories#and you don't get to hear him ask about Kaz#and then you get to Ocelot's reports and of course he calls him Miller instead of Kaz#and it feels SO distant and cold to talk about Kaz in this manner#and what truly makes me crazy is that BB never says 'Kaz' while you have ocelot and BB calling each other by their real names#and then. and then you have venom snake#who's constantly calling his name#Kaz?? Kaz! Kaz......#INSANE#m(ysterious) g(ay) s(ex)
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Shout out to my brain for convincing me that I'm still missing something in regards to preparing myself to start my new job next Monday, despite the fact that I've read a million "prepare yourself for work" articles and listicles and I have either everything already prepared or at least a plan to prepare that thing this week.
Its like when you're going on holiday and your brain is like "well what if you shit yourself every single day?? What if you pee yourself every five minutes even though you've never struggled with that at home?" Except it's my brain going "hey what happens if they expect you to bring your own phone headset?" Like???? They explicitly DONT, they have TOLD ME WHAT THEY EXPECT OF ME, can we STOP WORRYING OH MY GOD!???
#it doesnt help that the psych i found a couple weeks ago did NOT gel with me so im also on a psych hunt#which is now on pause til the new year because Im about to work 9-5 for five days a week for the first time since 2019#im not going to have TIME for therapy#im gonna maybe go do some helpful chores to shut my brain up and then play minecraft#which is not helpful because going to my partners therapy sessions has started helping me unmask#so its like im this banana thats been half peeled because oh! we were gonna start to make banana bread! (a metaphor here for therapy)#but then Ive realised I actually don't have the time or money or energy to make banana bread (do therapy) so ive had to just???#duct tape that unpeeled banana back together again#and the skin doesnt quite fit back properly so the flesh is poking through the holes and those exposed places are REALLY easy to damage#which like i know logically will be better in the long run for my banana bread but i have no sort of kitchen support at all#like the souix chef has fucked off the garbage boy never showed up for his shift the gravy kitchen hasnt worked in months#and the patisserie chef is way too distracted making eclairs out of chocolate laxatives to help with the fucking banana bread#anyway ive lost control of this metaphor which is actually a hilarious metaphor for my life and how im feeling about it right now#fingers crossed something comes of eventually getting on some sort of medication to help my brain because this genuinely isnt sustainable#especially with my brain going huurrr bdurr youre struggling??? heres a great way to regulate! *jazz hands* harm urself!!!!!#like fuck off kevin we both know thats not even remotely going to help#le sigh#okay thanks for reading if you got this far#im okay im fine im safe im just venting my feelings because journalling Just Wasnt EnoughTM this time#personal#raven rambles#work vent#mental health
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#delete later#i have three medical appointments in the work day in the next three weeks#one on Thursday then two mid/late January and i know that its good bc i need these appointments but i get so#anxious that ppl ay work are mad at me for having so many#im also scared about thirsdays one bc its for my ankle and hand pain and ironically the hand is way better and the ankle is also#more stable. something clicked again a couple days ago and fixed the pain in half of ky foot. no idea what happened there but#the click itself hirt like a bitch which is new. most of my pain doesnt start with a click and most clicks are painless#so fun#im just in a permanent state of being afraid i wont be taken seriously. my physio wanted a scan on my foot so om gonna#relay that but like idk what theyre gonna say. also if they do want to swnd me for a scan that's gpnna be ANOTHER appointment#so fuck me i guess. at the very leasy its not like severe psin any more so they wont send me to a and e for an x ray like they did#with my hip that one time. that would fucking suck to explain tp my manager#hey julia im fine but ive been sent ro rhe hospital for a scan so i guess ill be back when im back?#fuck me im anxious. and i hace so much apprenticeship work tp do i want to scream#also was distracted by my aching hands bc often they just ache abd successfully triggered myself so bow time to play what#is actual acge and what is remembered ache oh joy#one of the other appointments is gender clinic appointment abd im hoping to get referred for top surgery now ive been on t#for 9 months. waiting list gonna be like four fucking years but debating saving like mad abd going private bc jesus Christ#i cant bind bc of sensory problems and constantly aching ribs and last time i taped i ripped chunks of skin off so kinda#think i shouldn't do that again but like it sucks. not as bad now that my voice is dropping abd shit but still not fun#we'll see!
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How God listening to me vent about this mf entitled child and his enabling mother while I’m driving home from work.
#bro today had me heated#so SO heated#and I’ve been working on my temper lately#trying not to cuss#but FUCK today was just one of those fucking days#this child is 9 years old and whenever he doesn’t get his way he walks out of the service so we have to go outside after him#because we can’t leave kids unattended#so now I have to spend like 15 minutes DAILY tryna talk this kid off the fucking ledge so he comes back inside#and he’s just fucking sulking over the most minor shit#he does bullshit and I’ll call him out on it then he sulks#I tell him to share — even enforce it by making him share#like today he had two balloons and another kid wanted one and he was like nah they’re mine he can get one that’s stuck on the wall#(cause we decorated the room with balloons and taped some to the wall)#and I said no#just give him one of yours#so it was a while fucking fight#and I get fed up then end up taking one from him to give to the other child#and he can’t have that so he sulks and fucks off out the door#even goes so far as to walk to the gate so I left the other staff to deal with him outside#THEN oh you’re gonna laugh at this one#I asked a girl to get me something cause I was drawing something for work#then he asks me ‘why didn’t you ask me to get it for you?’#and I said it’s because she’s (the girl) is responsible then he goes ‘what? I’m responsible’#then I give him a look like ‘yeah fuckin’ right boy’ and it was all hehe’s and giggles#then the girl goes how are you responsible? do you do chores? do you cook? you know just general questions#then he goes oh no my mom doesn’t make me do chores#so we asked him ‘then how are you responsible when you don’t do anything?’#and the convo kinda just went on like that for like 5-10 mins and then an iPad was mentioned and I said ‘is that what your mom does?’#referring to how parents just put their kids in front of iPads these days and when I turn I see this mf has tears in his eyes#and I’m immediately like oh shit I didn’t mean it like that (cause we were joking) but then he walks off and goes to sulk in the corner
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btw i do not accept alex kralie hate at all on my blog :) you are allowed to hate him but please do not interact with me if you do👍
#marble hornets#alex kralie#coming from a system as well#ppl mischaracterize alex so fucking badly#ppl act like hes always been a dick but like#Have you watched the fucking series at all#Did u read the beginning of entry 9#Did u watch the audition tape entry#the most i could see pre alex being mean is if you said movie instead of film#sorry im going off#i just fucking hate alex haters#neg
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Clark loses his sight in Smallville and gains super hearing like hmmmmmmmm where have I seen this before
Y’all I ranted so much in the tags I ran out of tags this has never happened to me before
#all I can see when I look at him#is little 9 year old Matt murdock#small emo baby#im rewatching Smallville and I guess im making it everyone else’s problem#Smallville#Clark kent#Matt Murdock#unrelated I fucking hate all the relationship drama in this show#like just be good at communicating already#Matt Murdock would be a lot of help in this episode#as with most episodes#he wouldn’t be any help with the relationship drama tho#but he could just sneak up on sonic scream dude and duct tape his mouth shut or some shit#or just be less fucking stupid than everyone in this show except Martha kent#even johnathan y’all#he’s just too stubborn for his own good#clouds da judgement#be mad that lex luthor is trying to befriend your son for the correct reasons homie#like 21 year old trying to friendship 14 year old? very sussy#tho I do think lex didn’t have ill intentions on that end he was like this funky kid is my little brother now#he did trauma dump on Clark a decent bit#but like his whole descent into evil could have been stopped#with a bit of honesty from everyone#Clark could have told more people his secret#just not his weakness#or maybe just not the whole thing#but some form of I have some powers and that’s why all this weird shit happens around me#everyone in that damn town knows people get powers#just say you can run really fast and are a little stronger than the average human#hide everything else
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#not fandom related#personal log stardate#trans stuff#tried to call that surgeon's office#due to my class schedule and their stupid office hours i can only call them tuesdays from 9 am to 11 am#or mondays while i walk to class from 8 am to 8:30 am#but i dont rly want to walk outside in public talking abt how im trans and want my tiddies chopped off#while other ppl are in proximity#so i basically only have tuesdays#due to my social anxiety its v hard to make phone calls. today i hyped myself up wrote down what i want to say so i can read it during#the call. called at abt 10 am. it went staight to voicemail to tell me im calling outside of office hours#i check the email again they sent me w their office hours. 9 am to 11 am.#i tried several times until 11 am but it always went straight to voicemail. i was foaming at the mouth#like. why. why. why. these office hours are specifically to answer the phone and make appointments. so WHY tf is no one answering the phone#i hyped myself up for nothing. i took precious time out of my day for nothing. and i will have to do so again. next week. :)#why cant they make fucking appointments via email or online. like. no one likes to call a thousand fucking times#to make appointments. NO ONE!!! so why is this still a practice.#but the anger dampens my anxiety and at least i get some exposure to combat my anxiety surrounding phone calls and making appointments ugh#i dont like it tho#also ive found a new way to flatten my chest w tape. i still have to wear baggy button ups or wear a vest or open jacket on top#but it's a nice relief from wearing a binder and it takes only 1 strip of tape per chesticle#my chest is kinda big i think i used to have a 34 C or smth? my methid might not work w bigger chest tho.#i also have v dense breasts so even when i wear a binder theres this bump on my chest basically#so what i do is i take one strip across one boob. exactly in the middle so that the booby squishes out from underneath the tape#it does Not look nice when shirtless. but w a v tight undershirt it looks good enough to walk around the house#and for outside i wear a button down and or an open vest or jacket on top#vest or jacket is also good to hide the sideboobs being squished by backback straps
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nothing hurts my ego more than when someone the same height as me calls themselves short
#IM TALL OK#I WANT TO BE TALL#i say that and dont even know how tall i am#somewhere between 5 7 and 5 9 but i actually have no fucking clue#i am always wearing platform shoes#and also dont own a tape measurer longer than 5 feet#i like to feel tall#let me be tall#call me jenna marbles the way i want to be tall
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Post 9/11 Trivia
Most folks on this site were either children on September 11, 2001, or weren’t even born yet. But America went crazy for about a year afterwards. Here’s some highlights that I remember that might not be in your history books:
There was national discussion on whether or not Halloween should be canceled because…fuck if I know why. After planes crashed into buildings in NYC it follows that 6-year-olds in Iowa shouldn’t be allowed to dress up like Batman and ask their neighbors for candy, I guess. (Halloween wasn’t canceled, by the way.)
On a similar note, people asked if comedy - any sort of comedy - was appropriate anymore, ever.
People sold shitty parachutes to suckers “in case your building gets attacked and you have to jump out the window.” There were honest-to-God news reports warning people not to jump out of the window with shitty mail-order parachutes because they wouldn't work.
As a follow-up to the attacks, someone mailed anthrax to some prominent politicians and news anchors - you know, famous people - along with some badly-written notes about “you cannot stop us, death to America, Allah is good” and after that every time some random dumbass found a package in the mail they didn’t recognize they thought that the terrorists were targeting them, too.
Everyone was similarly convinced that their town was going to be the next target, even if they were a little town in the middle of nowhere. "Our town of Bumblefuck, South Dakota (population 690) has the largest styrofoam pig statue west of the Mississippi! Terrorists might fly planes into that too! It's a prime target!"
People started taping up their windows and trying to make their houses or apartments airtight out of fear of chemical and biological attacks. There were news reports warning people that turning your house into an airtight box was a bad idea because, y'know, you need air to breathe.
"[X] supports terrorism!" and “if we do [X], the terrorists win!” were used as arguments for everything. "Some rich Arab you never heard of donated to his organization that backs Hamas which backs al-Queda, and also owns stock in a holding company that has partial ownership of the Pringles company, so if you eat Pringles you're supporting terrorism!" "The terrorists want to tear down our freedoms and our way of life and rule us through fear! Eating what you want is one of our freedoms as Americans! If you're afraid to eat Pringles, the terrorists win!" (I promise you that this sort of argument is in no way hyperbole.) (This argument is how Halloween was saved, by the way. “If we cancel Halloween, the terrorists win!”)
People worked 9/11 into everything, and I mean everything, whether it was appropriate or not. If you went to the grocery store the tortilla chips would remind you to support the troops on the packaging. Used car sales would be dedicated to our brave first responders. You couldn't wipe your ass without the toilet paper rolls reminding you to never forget the fallen of 9/11, and again, this is not hyperbole. My uncle, who lived in Ohio and had never been to New York except to visit once in the 70′s, died of a stroke about 8 months after 9/11, and the priest brought up the attacks at the eulogy.
On a similar local note, on the day of 9/11, after the towers went down, gas stations in my home town immediately jacked up gas prices. The mayor had the cops go around and force them to take them back down. I doubt any of that was legal.
Before 9/11, Christianity in America - and religion in general - was on a downward swing, with reddit-tier atheism on the upswing. Religion was outdated superstition from a bygone age. The day after 9/11? Every single church was PACKED. (This wasn't a bad thing, but the power-hungry on the Evangelical Right saw this as a golden opportunity to grab power and influence.)
EDIT: By Popular Demand - Freedom Fries. I initially left these off because they came a couple years after the initial panic and most people thought they were kind of absurd (and I don't recall anyone really going along with it other than maybe some local diners here and there). France didn't want to get involved in our world policing so some folks were like "TRAITORS!" and wanted to call french fries "Freedom Fries" instead, so as to stick it to the French.
Besides dumb shit like that…it’s really hard to overstate how completely the national mood and character changed in the span of a day, or how much of the current culture war is a result of the aftermath. (9/11 was the impetus for the sharp rise in power of the Evangelical Right, who made themselves utterly odious and the following backlash helped the rise of the current Progressive Left, for instance.)
And if all of this seems batshit...well, it was. But I want you to think for a moment how people react today over even trivial shit. People send death threats over children's cartoons. They call for blood if the maker of a video game had an opinion they don't like. If someone made a racist joke a decade ago when they were a teenage edgelord, folks will go after people who even associate with them. "DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND ALL THE HARM THEY'RE DOING!?"
Now take that same level of over-the-top histrionics and apply it to the unprecedented event of passenger planes crashing into crowded buildings in America's most populous city and killing thousands of people all at once. "DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND THAT WE WERE ATTACKED!?"
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“Tim literally sucks at self care and can’t function properly without having someone breathing down his neck” is out and “Tim is a fucking health nut and freaks out the rest of the batfam with his ways” is in.
I bet you someone has freaked out when they found out he actually takes care of himself. Like a batfam member has an epiphany and they’re like “omfg he’s actually one of the few ppl in this family who’s succeeded in life and also is pretty healthy”
This man wakes up at 5:00 to go on runs. He eats properly bc of his asplenia. He has a fucking job, a proper 9-5.
he’s like successful in life and shit, that’s why his whole personality is so weird. Like he’s a weird little man who has his life together with a shit ton of duct tape.
I don’t take any arguments against this
#He also has a skin care routine bc why not?#tim drake headcanon#red robin#batfam#batman#bruce wayne#dcu#I personally think the person who’d have the epiphany is Dick#dick grayson#tim drake
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im sure an expert would tell me covering my windows with paper is bad for my mental health because now my room gets no sunlight and i dont get to easily look out the window anymore but you know what else is bad for my mental health. only getting 6-7 hours of sleep a night (if im lucky) because Someone (the sun) dared to bring light into my lair
#the Slightest bit of light will wake me up so i usually wake up once or twice between dawn and my alarm going off at 9#i also wake up when my face mask comes off and ive tried everything short of taping it to my face#it still comes off and i wake up because of it at least once a night#ive literally got the sleeby disease where you are sleeby#it also doesnt help that i need like 9-10 hours of sleep to genuinely feel rested#like ive had dark circles since i was a kid and the only time they went away#was for about a week when i was in middle school on summer break#because i was consistently sleeping for like 10 hours a night every night#and i have been constantly chasing that high ever fucking since#it felt so so so good to not be tired all the damn time#for my next trick i will be soundproofing my room#so someone opening a door in the other end of the house wont wake me up either
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Eight Day Collaboration With @valkyriexo
None of what you're about to read and experience will be overly summarized. I want you to dive into each piece completely blind, with only the expectation of tapping into your deepest—and possibly darkest—fantasies. Happy Kinktober
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Jeongin - Public Sex
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Chan - Mirror Play/Hate sex
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Minho - Tit Fucking
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Seungmin - Face sitting
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Felix - Food Play
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Hyunjin - Blindfold
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Changbin feat. Chan - Voyerism
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Han - Begging and Overstimulation
The end of Kinktober Collab with @valkyriexo ♥️
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Jeongin - Dry Humping
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Seungmin - Breath Play
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Felix - Phone Sex
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Jisung - Collaring
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Hyunjin - Wax Play
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Changbin - Somnophilia
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Minho - Fear Play
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Chan - Impact Play
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Jeongin - First Time
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Seungmin - Mutual Masterbation
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Felix - Sensation Play
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Jisung - Pegging
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Hyunjin - Sex Tape
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Changbin feat. Hyunjin - Kinbaku
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Minho - Make Up Sex
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Chan - Breeding
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Seungmin - Biting/Vampirism
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Jeongin - Face Fucking
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Han - Stalking
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Minho - Toy Play
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Changbin - Shower
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Chan & Felix - Double Penetration
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Oh no. Oh fuck. I am relistening to some of the earlier Protocol episodes, and I have a horrible, terrible, no good very bad suspicion about Gerry.
I could, I want to emphasize, be completely wrong! I could be wildly, hilariously, off the mark. But--hear me out. This is going to take some explaining about what I think is going on in the bigger picture worldbuilding stuff; hopefully it'll be coherent, but fair warning, it may get a bit long.
First: there have been a lot of cases that have boiled down to trying to keep only the "good"/desirable/etc aspects of things or events or people, and discard the "bad"/unwanted, right? We saw this happening very explicitly in episode 23 with Alesis Newman, and way back in episode 2 with Daria the painter, but a number of episodes have presented variations on a similar theme.
Two variations in particular that I've been thinking a lot about are the violinist in episode 4 and the gambler in episode 9. The violinist can play his violin beautifully, but he wants to be rid of the price in flesh and blood that it demands. Similarly, the gambler wants the rewards of rolling high on his magic dice, but wants to be rid of the misfortunes that come with rolling low. Crucially, both episodes make clear that in this type of balance--something unwanted for something wanted--you can't just make the unwanted piece vanish. It has to go somewhere, it has to happen. But you can make it happen to someone else, somewhere else. And when that's how the game works, one of the major questions for players who want to get ahead then becomes: "how do I make the bad stuff stay happening somewhere else, and keep reaping the benefits of the good stuff that balances it out?"
Here's where this gets wildly speculative and from here on I freely acknowledge that I may be talking out my ass:
I think the Magnus Institute was investigating that question. I suspect a great many alchemists before the Institute, probably going back to the times of Albertus Magnus, were investigating it as well. I think the Great Work they were attempting -- the "universal transmutation" alluded to in episode 21 as the Magnus Institute's aim -- was the exact opposite of Jonah Magnus's own "Great Work" in TMA. In other words, I think they were probably trying to make the world an eternal paradise, rather than an eternal hell.
But if you're getting rid of all the "bad" stuff, all the suffering and misfortune, it's got to go somewhere.
I think they were sending it through to other worlds.
I'm not going to get into all the reasons I think that right now, because that's a whole essay in itself, but basically--the Leitners in TMA? The artifacts? All the little bits and pieces of evil given physical form, that never had a clear origin point in the world where they caused so much suffering for so long? We've all been worried about them winding up here, post-Archives... but I think this is where they came from in the first place. I think they were sent away in the hopes that an increase in "bad" in other worlds would lead to an increase in "good" in this one. Remember all those books Albrecht von Closen found in the tomb in the Black Forest in TMA, that Jonah Magnus later stole and let loose on the world? Remember that Albrecht found a mysterious coin along with them dated 1279? Albertus Magnus died in 1280; I strongly suspect he sent those books from the world of Protocol to that of Archives shortly before his death, much as the world of Archives sent the tapes away centuries later. But I think Protocol's world kept sending things away, kept trying to export "bad" and import "good". Remember all those happy, laughing volunteers bringing strange and sinister items to the charity shop on Hill Top Road in episode 7? "All for a good cause."
Okay so. Now. With that bit of hypothetical framework for Protocol's worldbuilding in place, let's next go back to Alesis Newman of episode 23. Her expressed wish is to create a new her. "Someone better. Someone the pain can't touch." Someone who can be everything Alesis wishes she could have been. Someone "free of all (her) mistakes."
But increasingly it sounds like what she actually wants isn't to create someone new. It is to create someone who is only a part of her current self. Someone who, she says in one of her last few posts, will "just be the good parts of me."
And if that's the case, if what she's really trying to do is make someone who holds only the "good" parts of her, someone who can be happy and strong and perfect and loved by everyone forever... what happens to the bad parts of Alesis Newman, as she currently exists? What about the parts of her that feel pain and fear, the parts of her that make mistakes, the parts of her that she rejects?
One might assume, from the experience she narrates, that those pieces of her are simply being destroyed. But that doesn't line up with the suggestion we've seen from earlier episodes that there has to be some kind of balance maintained in these bargains. What she actually says is happening to her--and what the forum members have apparently told her will happen, through this process--is that she and this "new her" are "becoming one... and then two."
I don't think the "bad" parts of Alesis Newman are dying. I think they're also going to become a "new her"--they're just going to go somewhere else, somewhere the new, happy, strong, perfect version of Alesis Newman never has to see them.
Still with me?
Okay.
Now let's talk about Gerry. Let's talk about the smiling, laughing, irrepressibly happy Gerry Keay we meet early in Protocol. Gerry who seems to have everything that the Gerry Keay of Archives was denied.
Gerry who underwent tests at the Magnus Institute as a child, and who, per the static over his and "Gee Gee's" words, holds a few more secrets about what went on there than he let on to Sam and Celia.
Back when I first heard Gerry's appearance in episode 8, it sure felt like a narrative gut punch: This is who he could have been in Archives, if not for the presence of the Fears. This is what Jon and Martin's final decision threatens to destroy--for this safe, happy version of Gerry, and for everyone else in his world.
I'm now suspecting it might be significantly worse than that. I think the Magnus Institute might have done to Gerry Keay something similar to what Alesis Newman later did to herself: made him New. Kept only the good parts--ensured a happy, comfortable, good life for him. In which case, all the bad stuff--all the parts of Gerry Keay that would ever have to suffer from bad luck, to feel pain and fear and misery...
...well. They'd have had to go... somewhere else, wouldn't they.
Which would suggest I had the causality the wrong way around the first time I heard Gerry's appearance in Protocol: maybe it's not "Gerry has a happy life in this world because he didn't have to suffer everything that the Gerry Keay of Archives did."
Maybe it's "Gerry in Archives had to suffer everything he did because Gerry in Protocol was made to always be happy."
#in which seldon is extremely fucking normal about the magnus protocol#takes a *deep* breath and hits post#tmagp speculation#<-please let me emphasize the 'speculation' part it is entirely possible i don't know wtf i'm talking about#tmagp gerry#tmagp alesis newman#tmagp magnus institute#tmagp albertus magnus#tmagp#the magnus protocol#tmagp 23#tmagp 8#tmagp spoilers#the magnus protocol spoilers#pondering magpods
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𖦹Kinktober Lineup𖦹
CW: NSFW, f!reader
A/N: I’ve never done Kinktober before, but in honor of my account’s first October I thought it would be a nice treat. At the bottom of this post is an end of Kinktober poll, if you’d like to cast your vote please do!
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Week 1
Day 1 - Bondage / knife play - Jeff the Killer
Day 2 - Virginity loss / gentle fucking - Homicidal Liu
Day 3 - Car sex / stranded - Ticci Toby
Day 4 - Sex tape / double penetration - Tim Wright & Brian Thomas
Day 5 - Dry humping / hot boxing - BEN drowned
Day 6 - Breeding / monster fucking - Eyeless Jack
Day 7 - Pillow princess / praise - Bloody Painter
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Week 2
Day 8 - Sneaking out / rebelling - Ticci Toby
Day 9 - Face sitting / scissoring - Clockwork
Day 10 - Sensory deprivation - Jane the Killer
Day 11 - Cockwarming / Public sex - Jeff the Killer
Day 12 - Secret admirer / voyeurism - Hoodie
Day 13 - Pool party / mutual masturbation - Nina the Killer
Day 14 - Corruption / mentor - Masky
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Week 3
Day 15 - Shower sex / handjob - Homicidal Liu
Day 16 - Controlled vibrator / public - BEN drowned
Day 17 - Seven minutes in heaven - Kate the Chaser
Day 18 - Medical play / marking - Eyeless Jack
Day 19 - Hate sex / rough - Jeff the Killer
Day 20 - Stress relief / assistant - X Virus
Day 21 - Party / roof sex - Bloody Painter
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Week 4
Day 22 - Threesome / setup - Ticci Toby & Jeff the Killer
Day 23 - Sleepover / experimenting - Nina the Killer
Day 24 - Overstimulation / toy use - Brian Thomas
Day 25 - Orgasm denial / gentle praise - Jane the Killer
Day 26 - Rebound / 69 - Clockwork
Day 27 - Sneaking in / forbidden love - Kate the Chaser
Day 28 - Tentacles / choking - Slenderman
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Week 5
For the finale (Oct. 29 - Oct. 31) I will be posting a miniseries rather than the usual one shots! The poll below determines what the mini series will be about/ who it will be with. The results will be in after a week!
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#creepypasta#kinktober#october#smut#ticci toby smut#jeff the killer x reader#nina the killer x reader#ticci toby x reader#bloody painter x reader#clockwork x reader#kate the chaser x reader#jane the killer x reader#headcanon#hcs#headcanons#slender mansion#slenderverse#ticci toby#hoodie marble hornets#masky marble hornets#slender proxy#jeff the killer headcanons#jeffery woods#jeff the killer#smutober#tim marble hornets#tim masky#brian hoodie#brian marble hornets#masky mh
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